I don't need to hear this song again today.

Murder City Devils - "I Want A Lot Now"

Sounds exactly like high school, except there was no car.

How about:

Living's no good in this hick town and/or city
I'd drive to Portland but I ain't got no car
Can't drive either, might have asked my best friend
but she's a massive drunk and a whooooorrrrre

Gonna be home and instant message my friend, he's
Two thousand miles south, can't leave here cuz I'm poor
I'm gonna be stuck in this motherfucking hickville city
but at least he's a drunk and a freakin' whooooorreeee.

*thumbs up*

This song reminds me of the time in my life between 2002 and 2004. Astrology junkie times. I remember getting one of these Dopes songs stuck in my head on a long drive once in 2002, when I didn't have any music. Might be one of the causes for my brain infection.

This was also on The Matrix soundtrack in 1999... I got that the day I saw the movie in the theater at Clackamas Town Center, before I saw the movie itself. My friend was doing it, I had the money, and it was already established that half of the artists on the album were good to me. I haven't listened to it in ages... and upon grabbing the album just now, I see that Ministry's on it. No wonder I knew who they were when I finally came around to listen to them. Durr.

"Wake Up" by Rage... I listened to that eight hundred times when I first had this CD. I remember making fun of him. It was the "EUGH!" bit at 3:30 that got me laughing. Holy shit is this a painful listen today.

Stupid album reminds me of my ex(s), now.

I did a quick check of an old email account earlier and noticed I had a photo in there from one of them (though I couldn't tell which one til I checked). Fucking old. I don't even remember the context of getting it. Might not have been one. But jesus, man, get a room with yourself. You mistook me for some lady who has a delusion. I already burned your wicked garden.

Now I'm distracted by STP. Fucking hell. What is this, my high school reunion? Fucking Monster Magnet.

I can't... believe... I haven't posted this song yet. Two years, two and a half years!, and still nothing. And after listening to it eight million times, or 84 times since mid-2005 according to last.fm... 5 hours of my life, gone.

Naturally, of the Blue Sky Mind album that came out in 1996.

It's too bad I didn't have a last.fm (or audioscrobbler as it was at the time) eight months earlier than I did, because then I might have a record of actually hearing this for the first time and be able to say something definitive like it was one of my first listened favorites, but I forget now what order these songs went in after "Electric Sleep".

Yeah, it sounds like Black Sabbath. What are you going to do? Everything around here does. Odd, considering I tended to avoid Sabbathisms even when I was exposed to them growing up. Sunday is a shitty day, and even now after all of this I'm still cracking up at "serious" metal.

That "then you know they'll tell you a story" line at 1:20 pleases the Gemini in me. No, the other one.

Oh, and in case you haven't heard, there's a new Sheavy album out this year. Possibly even two of them...

"Electric Machine".

Acid King. Busse Woods (1999/2004 reissue).

I've heard this name floating around since I joined the Boris On Black Fire parade, but haven't bothered to get this until recently. That makes me ten years late. In reality, I'm probably only as late as I feel... so I suppose I'll be sterile forever. I'm glad there's nobody worth listening to who actually discusses stoner-sludge (of the 5 people) because then I can be the deer-in-headlights authority myself. In other words, commence listening or I'm going to cry and stomp my feet.

Or whatever.

It's a relaxed, simple, jam-my, Wednesday morning when you don't have work, kind of song. If you like that, you'll like this.

Song: "Bludge"
Artist: Tad
Album: Infrared Riding Hood (1995)

If I was human, I might like this song.

Overrated in the so-called "underground" whatever-the-frig scene but nevertheless good.

Song: "Lovefool"
Artist: The Cardigans
Album: First Band on the Moon (1996)

I heard part of this song in a commercial today... and immediately I was picturing listening to the radio at the time this song was popular. I haven't heard it in ages so it was more reference-specific for me than music has been for a while... All of this blog-related over-analyzation and genre-specific listening has taken a lot of the casual referencing out of music.

In any case, the song sounded cold and wet and metallic like my room at the time. I pictured my best friend and didn't know why until I looked up information on the song - it's on the soundtrack of her favorite movie then. I didn't like it... Probably because I think the story sucks bad enough as is.

Youtube wanted to remind me of that fucking "Kiss Me" song, and that reminded me also of recording in the back part of where I lived then, and Savage Garden, and playing Donkey Kong Country with my nephew, and laughing my fucking ass off about "birthing season". And more recent, sadder memories about how my same-aged friends are still listening to shit like this when there's newer artists out there that need a little lovin'.

The song also reminds me of going to the mall, seriously, and looking at dresses. Girly, frilly, scary as fuck prom type of dresses. I never did the dress thing, but my friends did a few times... Yikes. Hot Topic was a couple of doors down, and I remember one of the first times I set foot in that store, I heard "Kinda I Want To" by NIN for the first time. My best friend was a little over-enthusiastic about it. I had no idea it was Nine Inch Nails.

I went looking through old papers and photos the other day from when I was, mostly, in elementary school... and the horrors to my brain that ensued have resulted in this entry being more nostalgic than I've been in a while. You know what's crazy? My ten year high school reunion/anniversary is in six months. And I still act twelve...

Song: "Eyeless"
Artist: Slipknot
Album: Slipknot (1999)

Heyyy. I haven't posted this song yet.

I'm pretty sure I didn't care for this song at first, but it wore off on me over a few months. I suppose it inadvertently echoed what I was dealing with at the time. Some of the lyrics matched up well with my general thinking. It ended up becoming my favorite song of theirs, even well after I jumped off the bandwagon.

Ten years... Weird.

Then again, in ten years I'm going to be annoyed or embarrassed that I listened to [enter bands here] too much, so oh well.

Song: "Fang"
Artist: Spirit Caravan
Album: Jug Fulla Sun (1999)

I'm pretty sure the moon doesn't do that.

Song: "See Thru"
Artist: Staind
Album: Tormented (1996)

"WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROB-LEM?!"

Yeah, the intro to this song isn't remotely sincere sounding. Sounds like a couple of 20 years olds in a fight about who's going to do laundry and the guy just stands there in silence looking embarrassed by existence and she's thinking in her head that he's jacking off in his mind over some other girl, perhaps, if I could believe his "trying to be angsty for the record" response.

And he's low. So low... It's all his fault. If he would have done laundry for his psycho girlfriend like a good little boy, he wouldn't have had to write this crappy song.

Don't worry, man. We girls who don't play the girl game get "WHAT IS YOUR FUCKING PROB-LEM?!" on our answering machines, too. You're not alonnnnne.

I tell them I have brain AIDS.

I'm sure you actually do, considering you thought that would make a good introduction to a song.

Song: "The The Empty"
Artist: Le Tigre
Album: Le Tigre (1999)

I was going through random shit online and ended up on a forum for a lady comedian. Said lady has several tattoos on herself, many quite visible. She seems to dress specifically so that they are, indeed, visible. People on this forum were whining that the tattoos were below her and that they were ugly in so many words, suggesting ways to remove them. There were several pages and much lengthy commenting in agreement about this...

Very, very ironically, one of her tattoos is of a feminist symbol - it's actually the biggest one and the one they were bitching about the most. Let us imagine a tattoo of similar size on a man, a male comedian or actor perhaps... What would that forum's stick-up-ass members say about his tattoos? Likely the exact opposite, maybe something about "character". Sure, there would be a couple who would say they hated tattoos or whatever, but it wouldn't be somehow "below" said man. It would be apart of something bigger, a social decision, not a personal criticism.

I know better than to read forums, but yeah... That little double standard there pissed me off. People are fucking evil, judgmental pricks.

Similarly, they kept whining that she was "angry" or "seemed angry". Uh, okay, well, see... comics aren't FUCKING CLOWNS. Plus she's a political and social critic sort of comedian (think Bill Hicks), so essentially she's required to be dissatisfied. It's like when people bitch about musicians being moody. Uh, FUCKING DUH?! ARE YOU FUCKING RETARDED?

I get a similar amount of blatant stupidity out of people I encounter on a regular basis, though personally shaped. Excuse me for not being a sheep and not playing the social standards game. Fuck you. If you don't like what you get, you know where the fucking doors are.

I wish my "Abortions Tickle" shirt still fit.

Love you long time, Le Tigre.

Lyrics:
The stars are getting in and out of automobiles
And we keep wondering when we're gonna feel something real
Keep waiting for a Santa that'll never come
A real party not just people who're faking fun
But everything gets erased before it's even said
And all that glitters isn't gold when inside it's dead

You don't say, you don't say
You don't say anything

Song: "Venus in Red"
Artist: Valis
Album: Champions of Magic (2005) / Valis/Kitty Kitty split (1998)

I sampled these guys briefly due to their tour with Nebula, which I don't think is happening anymore since the local show now lists different bands (OMG: Mongoloid Village, Sandrider, Entrance). If you haven't heard them yet, either, now's a good time.

This song is a little bit on the psych side, but I'm hesitating calling it that. It certainly has a familiar sound if you know related bands or just the genre of stoner rock. Warm, soft, easy to listen to, nice groove, good vocals... and I'm talking about the split version, which is most apparent in the video below.

Song: "The Beautiful People"
Artist: Marilyn Manson
Album: Antichrist Superstar (1996)

Trying to think of a song that was astrologically relevant so I'd have something to post today. I came up with this.

The Sun's in Gemini about to square Saturn, the moon's in Libra being squared by Pluto.

Constipated rebellion meets ironically/sarcastically ugly. "The will to live in every host" = Libra. "You can't see the forest from the trees" = Saturn.

I'm pretty sure you've heard this so you don't need a link.

Song: "Criminal"
Artist: Fiona Apple
Album: Tidal (1996)

Today, I wake up and need to stay away from the heavy rock/metal until my health and hearing has equalized. I have no idea how the hell I get so health-disturbed from these things sometimes.

When this song came out, I was initially okay with it. It got old from overplay on both the radio and tv, and because I was in the writing/creative mood all of that year, it wore off so much that I started to re-write the lyrics for myself. For a while it was only "I'm feeling like a crack whore" but I felt I could do better, and wrote the song as holy as possible, changing key words and phrases so it would be a song about a girl being a drug addict. It was beautiful.

Crack Girl
I've been a bad bad girl
I've been smoking crack with my old man
And it's a sad sad world
When a girl who'd smoke a joint just because she can

[CHORUS]

And since I posted that, I might as well post the other good song parody I did which is much, much funnier...

Song: "Eulogy"
Artist: Tool
Album: Aenima (1996)

Ah, what the hell... I'm at mercy of the random/shuffle function.

Some things I remember about this song in the early days:

- I was in the car with my friends, and one of them complained that the song's intro before there were actual lyrics was too long (over two minutes). Another guy in the car yelled at him and gave him a nasty look. Always thought that was pretty funny...

- It's everyone's favorite pre-Lateralus Tool song, or at least among people I have known that weren't trying to impress me.

- Supposedly this is about Kurt Cobain? Or one of those guys... Likely just a rumor.

- Instead of "like I cared at all", I thought the lyric was "like a cannonball" up until I found toolshed.down.net. I have great listening skills.

- I saw a laser light show where they played this song to some graphic laser stuff. It was one of the best laser songs I'd seen, if not THE best.

- One of my ex's called himself "Eulogy" for a while. He had angst.

- "Not all martyrs see divinity, but at least you tried" goes through my head no less than once a week. It used to be a common statement I would tell my cat for no reason. I also called her "my lamb and martyr", but that's another song.

Lately, I tend to avoid this song when it crosses my path... I've heard it enough times to not need to hear it anymore. It's nice to reflect once in a while, though.

Song: "Natural One"
Artist: Folk Implosion
Album: Kids OST (1995)

I loved the fuck out of this song when I was growing up. The lines "when momma's not around, there's no telling what we'll do when we're free" especially struck me. I've always been a little irritated with the idea of having to be "supervised". I can police myself, and I will.

Story time!

One time I practically gave an old lady friend of my family a heart attack. She was watching me and my niece for the afternoon when I was about ten, and decided to drive us to visit Kmart. She let us wander the store a little, so I went through the books section to see if they had anything interesting.

I was immediately drawn to a book that was "young adult" about vampires. The plot had something to do with a lady vampire who chases some high school guy down, or vice versa. I loved vampires. I loved reading. A book about them sounded great to me. And, looking at the cover price, I had just enough money with me to spend on this book.

Now, I didn't want to let this old lady to see the cover of the book. Bottom line is that it was reading material. But yeah, this wasn't exactly Goodnight Moon. Still, I was old enough to handle what the watered down Kmart book selection could throw at me, and it's not too often that you get a ten year old enthused in reading. I assumed that this old lady might be proud to see a little girl happy about words and knowledge.

I decided to ask nicely first, just because that's what you're supposed to do. So I found her and asked if it would be alright if I bought anything, like a book. She said no and gave some bullshit reason. But it's really inexpensive and I'll pay for it because I have the money? No.

The fuck? I'd never been told NOT to read before.

I thought about it, and I decided I was going to have the book. I wandered around the store until we got almost to the counter, then I went in line behind the lady and bought the book as she was moving out of the store with my niece.

I'm not sure how she figured it out, but she did after the fact. I was yelled at. She was going to tell my mom on me, tell my mom how bad I was. Yeah, my mom was going to be TOTALLY offended that instead of liquor store candy, I spent $5 on a book. How dare I expand my mind and learn about the world. I was gonna get beat when I got home, and then my mom was going to burn all my damn books as punishment... especially that one about the mouse who ate the cookie. YOU SEE WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE A READER?! YOU'RE GONNA NEED MILK! AND MILK IS THE GOLDEN TICKET TO HELL! [enter flames here]

I was astounded at this lady's lack of culture, but I'd dealt with moron adults before. Just shut up and take what they've got and at the first clear exit, run.

After Kmart, the lady took us to lunch... and the bitch would not shut up about the book. Her attitude was just ridiculous. I completely lost any minor respect I might have had for her "authority" because she was clearly undeserving. You don't teach kids how to behave by ostracizing them and acting like a cunt.

So, of course, the restaurant was so kind to my situation by getting my order wrong. I couldn't eat what I was given... and I really didn't want to say anything to the old cuntbitch. But she saw me not eat and thought I was "acting up" again. She lost it.

I imagine the first person she told was my brother in law, in that disgusted, hateful, passive-aggressive fashion that only stingy old people can manage when talking about "the youth these days", when he came to pick my niece and I up. I'm sure he just laughed that I'd pissed off the old lady so much. Nothing happened after we left... despite being a very "interesting" afternoon full of threats and hate.

I keep the book on a shelf in my room, even now.

Apparently when momma's not around, I read. Oh yeah, and EAT COOKIES!

Song: "Trust"
Artist: Megadeth
Album: Cryptic Writings (1997)

This is dedicated to you-know-who because, holy shit, it's your birthday. I could never forget your birthday... After all, you're the best trustin' I ever had. Har har. I know.

In any case, you're better than Megadeth is even on their best day under ideal circumstances, which probably doesn't say a whole lot... but all the same, keep being great. <3

Song: "Rickets"
Artist: Deftones
Album: Around The Fur (1997)

Looking at the wiki entry for the album, I decided to look up the day that this album came out in my own history.

Apparently a friend of a friend told me I was "cool" that day. That used to happen a lot. It seemed to be people's way of saying they liked me well enough at the moment but if I acted human later there would be consequences. Or maybe a rounded off version of "you seem nice but you probably have chains hanging from your bedroom ceiling" and/or "you seem nice and I'd probably do you... if I was drunk".

One of those times, I got a picture from a guy who I thought "liked" me because he flirted with me (unprovoked & constantly) that said "your cool" on the back of the picture. I wish I would have ordered pictures that year so I could have written on the back of mine "YOU'RE A FUCKING TEASE. LEARN TO SPELL, DUMBASS. 'YOUR' IN HIGH SCHOOL NOW."

And instead of just handing the photo to him, I would have thrown it on the floor at his feet and done a mexican hat dance around it. OLÉ!

And then gone home and listened to Pearl Jam's "Black" and sobbed into my pillow.

In other words, I like this song.

Song: "Touch, Peel & Stand"
Artist: Days of the New
Album: Days of the New (1997)

Brainwashing! This was on the radio so fucking much when I was a teenager. I don't know why it's good listenings, but it simply is.

I also can't fathom that the vocalist here is only three years older than me. He sounds older...

Song: "Forever My Queen"
Artist: Pentagram
Album: Review Your Choices (1999)

I'm late.

As in, literally. This song made me pregnant.

Obviously I have to abort. All of my hangers are made of plastic, so could someone please send me a care package?

Hm, that's how I got in this mess to begin with. Nevermind.

Song: "The Sermon to the Hypocrites"
Artist: Behemoth
Album: Satanica (1999)

I finally listened to a Behemoth song all of the way through, seeing as it came on when I was busy doing something and I didn't think to turn it off. I suppose this is familiar to a few things I've posted in the past... but it's still left field for me.

What do you think? Behemoth: yes/no?

Ninety-nine sucked for me. It started off bad but I was still maintaining because I was delusional, still. A month later, the shit hit the fan and did not, at all, let up, for the entire year.

This was the year I finally got a copy of The Downward Spiral - THAT is EXACTLY the mood I was in. Then, between Slipknot's self-titled and The Fragile, I'd found my personal musical mecca of the moment. Pretty much all of this popular music sounded like crap to me.

These were my songs of the year (among a bunch that didn't come out this year):
"Purity" - Slipknot
"Mudshovel" - Staind
"The Big Come Down" - Nine Inch Nails

"All Star" - Smash Mouth. This one reminds me of my ex. Fucking happy jerk.

"American Woman" - Lenny Kravitz. One asks why.

"Ana's Song (Open Fire)" - Silverchair. Oh boy, popularizing misery, that's what I love. I remember "Anthem For the Year 2000" better because, well, it was supposed to be my generation's "song". Not that my generation doesn't listen to any of this other garbage and think it's the greatest thing ever. Fucking idiots.

"Angel" - Sarah McLachlan. No.

"...Baby One More Time" - Britney Spears. It wasn't immediate hate. I have to say I relate to some of her apparent issues. But the differences mean a lot...

"Bawitdaba" - Kid Rock. All I remember about Kid Rock other than the obvious mass suckage is that one of my internet friends was talking about her love for Kid Rock shortly after this period... and yeah. She's not my friend anymore.

"Beautiful Stranger" - Madonna. Was pleased she didn't continue on with the goth thing.

"Blue Monday" - Orgy. Reminds me of another ex for no apparent reason.

"Blue (Da Ba Dee)" - Eiffel 65. Do I even need to say this is annoying? I thought this song was hilarious the first time I heard it because of a private joke I had with a friend about the word/name/title "Blue". I wanted really badly to call them up that second to tell them about it, but I didn't hear the song until after they were raped from my sphere. Sucks.

"Californication" - Red Hot Chili Peppers. Didn't like it. Thought I'd heard enough of his thoughts on his location.

"Everybody's Free (To Wear Sunscreen)" - Baz Luhrmann. Oh god, I remember this being popularized again around the time of my own graduation...

"Every Morning" - Sugar Ray. This song disturbed me.

"Falling Away From Me" - Korn. ARGH. I hated Issues SO BAD when it came out. And for the next several years. I don't know HOW I grew into it, but it somehow happened when I wasn't paying attention. But yeah. The production really got to me. I was used to Korn's self titled... This was, just... gay.

I remember the first days of high school, in 1996, knowing a girl who wore a black and white oversized Korn t-shirt all of the fucking time. She was not "popular" in the least. By the time Issues came out, all of my friends - male and female, online and at school and everywhere else - liked Korn. They had tons of radio play. It had somehow become "cool" to like Korn. WHAT?

But yeah, the production... it was just, fucking fuck this radio friendly, mute garbage.

"Genie in a Bottle" - Christina Aguilera. You can probably guess how I felt about this.

"Have You Ever?" - Brandy. Loved someone so much it made me cry?! Not this week, Brandy.

"I Need To Know" - Marc Anthony. Yuck.

"I Want It That Way" - Backstreet Boys. x2.

"If You Had My Love" - Jennifer Lopez. Brainwashing.

"Kiss Me" - Sixpence None the Richer. Maybe this should be called "Herp-es". Ha?

"Last Kiss" - Pearl Jam. Some guy I knew in a band, I can't remember which guy I knew in a band because there's just so many to pick from, but... some guy told me his band was going to perform this song for some school thing shortly after this time. I was confused and yet awed that anyone my age could do this.

"Learn to Fly" - Foo Fighters. AIRPLANES.

"Lit Up" - Buckcherry. I'd rather not, but at the moment I, too, loved the cocaine. One of my friends in more recent years is (was?) obsessed with Buckcherry... I don't really get it. Maybe one day he'll reform back to Black Sabbath-inspired stoner rock with me. I have tons of that to share. You just have to ask. Seriously.

"Livin' la Vida Loca" - Ricky Martin. I don't know how, but I forgot what this song sounded like...

"Mambo No. 5 (A Little Bit Of...)" - Lou Bega. ... Dion - The Wanderer.

"Man! I Feel Like a Woman!" - Shania Twain. Your attempt at irony angers me.

"My Name Is" - Eminem. It was interesting enough a few times in, but... you know, there's only so much of this you can take.

"My Own Worst Enemy" - Lit. Lyrics WTF?

"No Scrubs" - TLC. I guess it has some kind of weird feministic application, but.. no.

"Nookie" - Limp Bizkit. At first I wasn't caring or paying much attention to what was going on over here, but it was soon realized what an obnoxious fucking asshole this guy is. ... and this whole genre.

"Pretty Fly (For a White Guy)" - The Offspring. I knew a guy who fit this song. I don't know if he was retarded or autistic or what, but... yeah.

"Praise You" - Fatboy Slim. WORST VIDEO OF ALL MANKIND EVER.

"She's So High" - Tal Bachman. hiiiiiiiiii ee iiiiiiiiigh.

"Sleep Now in the Fire" - Rage Against the Machine. Well ok.

"Smooth" - Santana feat. Rob Thomas. Oh wow, someone won over a new crowd! Congratulations, you're still a bandwidth-wasting asshole!

"Steal My Sunshine" - Len. One of the few songs that was interesting this year, yet not overplayed.

"The Bad Touch" - Bloodhound Gang. Everyone liked this, then. I hate all of you very much. Fucking die. Seriously, right now... Kill yourself. You have nothing to offer society or the world in general. There's no point. Just do it.

"Waiting for Tonight" - Jennifer Lopez. I could not fucking believe I liked this song. I was listening to the near-exact opposite spectrum of music at this time, and yet... I didn't cringe or want to hurt anyone hearing this.

"What It's Like" - Everlast. No, and fuck you.

"What's My Age Again?" - Blink 182. This band's attention span is greater than my own.

"Where My Girls At" - 702. Owning people is great.

"You Get What You Give" - New Radicals. PEEEEACE ISWHATYOUGET FROM THE CHEMICAL KING.... Not that I'd heard Spine of God yet, but yeah. Time to go listen to it, now.

Welp, that was fun.

Song: "Twin Sisters And Half a Bottle of Bourbon"
Artist: Karma to Burn
Album: Karma to Burn (1997)

Dear this song,

I may have posted you before. It doesn't matter. I still love you so. There will be daisies. Und keine Eier.

Hm, upon further inspection, I did not post you before. Not even as "One". I fail.

This was the year I decided I'd had enough with pop music. I went into 1998 casually listening to music, not really caring that much what it was as long as it sounded good enough, and left the year stuck on the hard rock/metal radio station, a CD stereo of my own, and the beginnings of my crush on Tool. This was an amazing year for me, and everything I do now has roots here... It's when I first used the internet, had my first relationship, and of course began to learn about music.

My favorite song from this year, "Space Lord" is not on this list, and it should be. Dave's voice broke my brain. I bought Powertrip at Fry's, listened to it, thought some of the songs were great. I brought the CD for some car trip to play for my friend/friends, and I remember their reaction. Silence, nothing. My best friend laughed at the lyrics in Baby, but maybe only because I prepped the song with a story about it being odd. That's it. I was really disappointed. A new rule was later enacted: no new friends who don't "get" music. Still in place.

In the meantime...

"Are You That Somebody?" - Aaliyah featuring Timbaland. I thought this was alright. I remember my really hot kind of gay younger male blonde friend with his little red shorts dancing to shit like this. Tease.

"Ava Adore" - Smashing Pumpkins. I don't remember this video at all... I had a friend that looked a lot like BILLAY here.

"Believe" - Cher. do you BEH-LEEEV IN LIFE AFTA LOVE?!

"The Boy Is Mine" - Brandy and Monica. It was amusing the first time. After that, obnoxious.

"Celebrity Skin" - Hole. I avoided this because of Nirvana. Didn't give a crap about the politics involved, just wanted to be far from it.

"Closing Time" - Semisonic.

"Crush" - Jennifer Paige. I made fun of this song mercilessly for a while, and then formed a piece of one of my shows around it. It was really stupid... I didn't even try. But the song is just so gay.

"Doo Wop (That Thing)" - Lauryn Hill. Hate.

"The Dope Show" - Marilyn Manson. I knew of Marilyn Manson about a year. I liked them only just enough, and my boyfriend sent me Mechanical Animals. I hated it at first, and this song gets on my nerves, but they definitely wore off after a while.

"The First Night" - Monica.

"Fly Away" - Lenny Kravitz.

"Frozen" - Madonna. This video was on every morning when I got up for a while. Obnoxious. It's so boring, and Madonna's holier-than-thou bullshit going on around this time made it even worse.

"Got The Life" - Korn. Korn and Tool came in together for me. I still love this song despite wanting to hate Korn so bad. "Freak on a Leash" isn't here, but I recall listening to it one night and, for the first time, being overcome by the need to be in music somehow.

"Gettin' Jiggy wit It" - Will Smith. This was really popular that summer... and therefore annoying.

"Hard Knock Life" - Jay-z. I only heard this a couple of times before I went into radio/tv silence. My friend(s?) liked this a lot... Didn't give a crap. I could watch Annie instead.

"I Don't Want to Miss a Thing" - Aerosmith. TOO SAPPY. My boyfriend saw the movie before I did and was talking about it a lot at the time. Thus, permanently connected, and no thanks.

"I Want You Back" - *NSYNC. Yep, this is exactly why I stopped listening to the fucking radio.

"Intergalactic" - Beastie Boys. Hated despite being not even a hundredth as gay as the previous song.

"Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls. "And I'd give up forever to touch you". Welljesusshit, I think you about covered this year for me there, man.

"My Heart Will Go On" - Celine Dion. She's shown up on almost every year so far... and I was doing a great job of avoiding her until the god damn Titanic. What a bunch of garbage.

"Never Ever" - All Saints. Liked.

"Never There" - Cake. Cake gives me a headache.

"One Week" - Barenaked Ladies. NU rock.

"Ray of Light" - Madonna.

"Save Tonight" - Eagle-Eye Cherry. Best friend liked this for a while.

"Sex and Candy" - Marcy Playground. Another hated song. They played this too god damn much.

"Slide" - Goo Goo Dolls.

"Still Not a Player" - Big Pun feat. Joe. Heh! I'm pretty sure I haven't heard this in ages, but it's like it never left. Still stuck in my head. I'm not a player, I just crush a lot.

"Torn" - Natalie Imbruglia. I tried to write a parody of this song. I ended up listening to it fifty times to write out the lyrics/inflections so I could get my parody right. I never finished it, and I never want to hear this ever again.

"Turn the Page" - Metallica. I loved this song when I heard/saw it. I think I was hearing it a lot when I was having hard times down on the homefront.

"The Way" - Fastball. An-y-one can see that the road that they walk on ....

"When the Lights Go Out" - Five. Another boyband. That's exactly what I wanted.

"Whiskey in the Jar" - Metallica. Uh, no.

By this point I was listening mainly to the alternative rock station. During this summer I watched a lot of mtv, also. I'm going by the list on wikipedia, but all the same... It looks to me like a few songs are missing from this.

"Barbie Girl" - Aqua. As I said in the last entry... the beginning of the mechanical "dumb girl" pop.

"Bittersweet Symphony" - The Verve.

"Block Rockin' Beats" - The Chemical Brothers. I remember this being on late weekend nights apart of some radio thing where they remixed songs together...

"Breathe" - The Prodigy. I saw this for the first time this summer, and thought it was the coolest thing EVER. I wanted to be Prodigy when I grew up.

"Da Funk" - Daft Punk. I think I have a clip of this song somewhere in my nonsensical tapes.

"Dammit" - Blink-182. And the trend that plagued my high school days began. You fucking assholes.

"Don't Speak" - No Doubt. This song irritated the fucking hell out of me. It wouldn't go away on the radio or the tv. "Spiderwebs" (year before?) was way better.

"Everlong" - Foo Fighters. I quoted this song at someone the following year because I wanted to love them long time. They totally ignored me. Six years later, they sent me the song like I wasn't the one who had introduced them to it in the first place. It was weird.

"Firestarter" - The Prodigy. Can't hear this song without picturing Drew Barrymore.

"Gone Away" - The Offspring. And it feeeeeeeeeeeels. like, heaven, so far away.

"Honey" - Mariah Carey. And here's where Mariah started comping. And the videos all became stupidly flashy/expensive looking in the genre.

"Hypnotize" - The Notorious B.I.G. I say that songs get stuck in my head a lot, and they do... but this one was one of the worst I've ever had stuck in my head. Just, over and over, BIGGIE BIGGIE BIGGIE CAN'T YOU SEE...

"I'll Be Missing You" - Puff Daddy. This was so fucking popular this summer, and single handedly popularized Puffy...

"It's All About The Benjamins (Remix)" - Puff Daddy. Didn't really care... and though it's not on this list, these videos are reminding me of the song "There's No Sex In The Champagne Room", aka the best video ever.

"The Impression That I Get" - The Mighty Mighty Bosstones. I'm pretty sure my reaction was WHAT THE FUCK?

"Karma Police" - Radiohead. Oh Radiohead, why... Do you exist to just irritate me, or what?

"MMMBop" - Hanson. I was told I looked like a member of Hanson this year. My niece is a bitch.

"Monkey Wrench" - Foo Fighters. Somebody got a haircut...

"Mo Money Mo Problems" - The Notorious B.I.G. SHINY!

"Put Your Hands Where My Eyes Could See" - Busta Rhymes. Oh wait, I was wrong... this is the best video ever.

"Quit Playing Games (With My Heart)" - Backstreet Boys. This and similar bands coming up at the time seemed like a total musical reversion to me. Even having listened to mainly lowest-common-demoninator popular music for most of my life, plus being young and female (aka the intended demographic), I still could not get into this shit in the least.

"Semi-Charmed Life" - Third Eye Blind. This was my first sincerely favorite song, and its popularity coincided with my first "relationship" (the quotes are important) and when I started journal writing.

"Song 2" - Blur. WOO HOO. I remember talking about this song with my first "real" boyfriend. He liked it, too.

"Truly Madly Deeply" - Savage Garden. One of my friends liked this band/song and made me listen to them on a very long drive to the beach once. I didn't think they were bad, but seriously... I do not have the freetime emotion for this kind of stuff.

"6 Underground" - Sneaker Pimps. I remembered this song with fondness. Picked it up again recently and... I can't remember why I liked it.

"Tubthumping" - Chumbawumba. All I remember about this song is how vapid american kids are, not understanding "pissing".

"Walkin' on the Sun" - Smash Mouth. Liked them okay until they became overplayed. Then my boyfriend went and did or said something or other with one of their songs, can't remember what, but it put a bad feeling for me on the band.

I moved in 1996 and started high school. These things were very refreshing for me. At the time I was dialing back and forth between the pop station and an 80s/early 90s non-cheesy pop and dance station, and late this year I started listening to the alternative rock station (post-grunge, pre-nu metal times) sometimes as well. I didn't yet own a CD player and my newest friend owned Metallica CDs, which made me realize I had something to work on if I was going to be as cool as I felt in high school (sarcasm).

"1979"- The Smashing Pumpkins. I'd pretty much tuned out by this point.

"All Mixed Up" - 311. Never understood their popularity...

"Big Me" - Foo Fighters. MENTOS.

"California Love" - Tupac Shakur / Dr. Dre. After five years of pining for home and parents that didn't suck at life and thinking every day about running away, this song spoke to me...

"Children" - Robert Miles. I completely forgot about this song until I found it on some comp a few years ago. It sounds way better as an adult.

"C'Mon N' Ride It (The Train)" - Quad City DJ's. I could stand to never hear this song ever again, ever.

"Crash Into Me" - Dave Matthews Band. Crash into your own damn self, asshole.

"Don't Cry for Me Argentina" - Madonna. ...became "Don't cry for me, Pepperoni" after a while. I miss saying ridiculous shit to my cat. What a jealous bitch.

"Down" - 311. CHILL. Or don't, because, ew. No.

"Give Me One Reason" - Tracy Chapman. Annoying from overplay.

"Guilty" - Gravity Kills. And here we find the first socially relevant song and band I had a crush on (assuming Stabbing Westward didn't come first). This song, it's dirty but subtle/well-timed... Finally I find my kind of music. Their CD became one of my first.

"Head over Feet" - Alanis Morissette. Tuning out...

"Hero of the Day" - Metallica. His mom tried to rape him. I wonder if Metallica's ever toured with Mudvayne.

"If It Makes You Happy" - Sheryl Crow. I had no crushes synchronize with this song.

"If You Could Only See" - Tonic. Future boyfriend projection.

"I'll Stick Around" - Foo Fighters. How young they look...

"It's Oh So Quiet" - Björk. I still have no idea what to think.

"Interstate Love Song" - Stone Temple Pilots. Internets love song.

"Ironic" - Alanis Morissette. No, it isn't.

"Killing Me Softly" - The Fugees. Cover songs are annoying, but I didn't mind this the first couple of times I saw it.

"King Nothing" - Metallica. The song's been stuck in my head, uh, 13 years...

"My Boo" - Ghost Town DJ's. Gross.

"Naked Eye" - Luscious Jackson. I remember recording this off the radio once and my niece recorded over it.

"No Diggity" - Blackstreet featuring Dr. Dre. Just posted this...

"One Headlight" - The Wallflowers. They lost me with their name. But wow, that guy looks familiar to me now. Creepy.

"Pepper" - Butthole Surfers. I had a cat named Pepper and one named Cinnamon. I was curious as to how this song happened to me.

"Pretty Noose" - Soundgarden. I was pissed Soundgarden hadn't died in a plane crash.

"Return of the Mack" - Mark Morrison. Another guy named Mark.

"Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth With Money in My Hand" - Primitive Radio Gods. More hate to give.

"Stupid Girl" - Garbage. I told my nephew that this song was about his sister one day, and we decided to obnoxiously sing it hoping she'd hear. We also had a good laugh about "Head Like A Hole" near this year...

"Tha Crossroads" - Bone Thugs-N-Harmony. My nephew making me laugh, again.

"The Beautiful People" - Marilyn Manson. I didn't pick up Marilyn Manson until later... At this time I just remember hearing the name in synch with negative criticism.

"Tonight, Tonight" - The Smashing Pumpkins. Terrible. I saw this performed on some music (video?) awards and was just... no. Boring, dull, no no no.

"Until It Sleeps" - Metallica. Take it out for coffee?

"Virtual Insanity" - Jamiroquai. Lovvvvvved this video when I first saw it.

"Wannabe" - Spice Girls. I might have heard about the Spice Girls before I saw the video, because I remember all of this talk about their feministic ways and being somewhat offended that they were really kind of slutty. In retrospect, this was pretty much the beginning of the forced, mass-produced mechanical "dumb girl" pop.

"What I Got" - Sublime. Overrated.

"Where It's At" - Beck. Also overrated, but I loved this song.

"Who Will Save Your Soul" - Jewel. I thought this song would go away after its moment, but it's hard to get fucked up teeth songs out of head.

"Zero" - The Smashing Pumpkins. And god is empty just like me.

This year was strange, to say the least. I spent most of the time escaping through books and video games and writing fucked up things. I'm lucky I didn't have any friends because this would have been a prime year to learn about socially medicating myself. People are fucking assholes.

"1st Of Tha Month" - Bone Thugs-N-Harmony. My nephew liked this group... It was the weirdest thing I'd ever seen.

"Ants Marching" - Dave Matthews Band. I don't get it, at all.

"Any Man of Mine" - Shania Twain. When I was a teenager, someone bought me one of Shania's CD. This is when I was listening to Tool and Marilyn Manson. I wondered a lot about this completely off interpretation.

"Breakfast at Tiffany's" - Deep Blue Something. I remember this was on the radio a lot... Boring.

"Buddy Holly" - Weezer. I thought this came later... Guess not.

"Bullet With Butterfly Wings" - The Smashing Pumpkins. I loved this video when I first saw it (as much as I could with all of my rampant hate going on at this point). One of these days it's getting parodied. If you have an all black t-shirt, or a black shirt that doesn't have see-through print on the inside, and you don't mind dirt/makeup, you should let me videotape you very seriously lip-singing this.

"Bulls on Parade" - Rage Against the Machine. Nothing like a drunk boy trying to quote this song to make an afternoon. I miss when guys were cute instead of in need of a good kick in the nuts, and the head, and the stomach, etc.

"Carnival" - Natalie Merchant. Can't seem to find the video anywhere, but yeah... I remember not being impressed.

"Cotton Eye Joe" - Rednex. A few people I knew after this time said they remembered this song with fondness... I must have missed something, somewhere.

"Creep" - TLC. Didn't care for this when it came out (what a shitty video in comparison to Waterfalls), but I liked the song itself when I was older.

"December" - Collective Soul. Very memorable song in and of itself...

"Don't Take It Personal" - Monica. Loved this when it came out... I mean, why not, I have psycho in the genes.

"Fantasy" - Mariah Carey. I remember my family playing this in the car while I sat there in pain.

"Freak Like Me" - Adina Howard. I just posted this...

"Gangsta's Paradise" - Coolio. I could quote the shit out of this song this year... That and California Love... but apparently that's next year.

"Hand In My Pocket" - Alanis Morissette. Though I understand, it bugs me when people I know don't like Alanis. We have the same Sun/Moon, near the same degrees... Also, the same Venus...

"Hey Man, Nice Shot" - Filter. This song always reminds me of the movie Demon Knight.

"Hook" - Blues Traveler. Amazing song about "amazing" songs.

"I Know" - Dionne Farris. Became annoying through overplay...

[break]

"I wanna be with u" - Fun Factory. Fucking radio asshole jerks. Man.

"Kiss From A Rose" - Seal. I hate this song. Still.

"Lightning Crashes" - Live. I remember wondering where this song went after a while, but I couldn't tolerate its slowness at the age I was when it was popular.

"Lump" - The Presidents of the United States of America. BAA.

"Macarena" - Los del Río. I did the Macarena once or twice just to be stupid. Mainly I remember the olympics people the next year doing it.

"Missing" - Everything But The Girl. I hated this from overplay, but somehow it snuck into my collection when I was older. I remember listening to the radio once and some girl calling in trying to ask what the lyrics were... MORON.

"One More Chance (Remix)" - The Notorious B.I.G. Oh no, here comes Faith...

"Only Wanna Be With You" - Hootie & the Blowfish. Suck suck suck suck sucks.

"Run-Around" - Blues Traveler. Memorable video...

"Scream" - Michael Jackson & Janet Jackson. Nice attempt at a comeback, but NO.

"She" - Green Day. She, she screams in silence...

"The World I Know" - Collective Soul.

"This Is A Call" - Foo Fighters. It took a while, but I liked the Foo Fighters.

"This Is How We Do It" - Montell Jordan. Nothing like parading superficial bullshit for the kids.

"Tomorrow" - Silverchair. Nothing like being the same age as the people on the tee-vee and not knowing how this could be possible.

"Wonderwall" - Oasis. I decided that Oasis' only asset to bring them into popularization was their blatant post-Beatles Britishness.

"You Oughta Know" - Alanis Morissette. Hate. Hate is great. I love hate.

Song: "The Way"
Artist: Fastball
Album: All the Pain Money Can Buy (1998)

This song was also on the tape...

Song: "Freak Like Me"
Artist: Adina Howard
Album: Do You Wanna Ride? (1995)

I was going through tapes today and found a clip of this song. I had recorded the tape in '98 and wasn't intending to record this song specifically. It's interesting seeing how over-the-top sexual this song is in relation to other shit I picked up from the same time, or my friends around this time, or where I was/am in general. I'm surprised this song was on the radio as much as it was, considering "freak" is an obvious synonym...

Song: "Pony"
Artist: Ginuwine
Album: Ginuwine…the Bachelor (1996)

Here's another one from the same time. If the song isn't funny enough as is, imagine a ten year old enthusiastically singing this.

I prefer this version.

Song: "No Diggity"
Artist: Blackstreet
Album: Another Level (1996)

And speaking of over the top shit...

I remember listening to this when I was... 15? It was awful then. Most of my music-listening relatives were really into rap/r&b, so I heard enough as it was, but this song was played... constantly... on the radio. I was pretty sure at this point I wasn't heading in that direction, but god... mass media is cruel.

Wikipedia is telling me I was 14. Ok.

Song: "Jerusalm (pt. 5)"
Artist: Sleep
Album: Jerusalem (1999)

And, this song is about being a good christian.

:)

Song: "Deformography"
Artist: Marilyn Manson
Album: Antichrist Superstar (1996)

I have the fondness for this song. It sucks that it's "cool" right now to hate this guy, because some of his albums are still packed full of classics.

Song: "Moriah"
Artist: Masters of Realty
Album: Welcome to the Western Lodge (1999)

'Tis good.

Song: "Reload"
Artist: Ministry
Album: Filth Pig (1995)

Got another mail today from someone attempting to evaluate my atheism. It seems if a stranger on myspace finds me, that's the only thing they see and therefore the only thing I get mail about. Or perhaps myspace has its own special brigade sent out to convert the lesser. I suppose it goes without saying, but some of these people seem like they would have benefited from a few more years in school. Spelling, grammar, punctuation, perhaps some typing lessons. There should also be a class specifically to learn about boundaries, especially on the internet.

So, anyway, this song is awesome and on par with what I've just "outlined". Give it a listen.

In the meantime, I'm going to get back to having premarital group sex with your sons and divorced daughters (all naked, of course, except for Chris because he's ashamed of his little dick so he wears a Big Bird costume which totally turns on his cousin so it's cool), all after a fine dinner of pickled human fetus that Mary brought from her abortion last summer... on wild rice with a side of broccoli. The rice was probably the only decent part of the meal but I don't want to offend Mary so don't tell her that. Anyhow, after our post-dinner sexploits, we will enjoy chocolate chip marijuana brownies and read tarot cards to each other. Oh yeah, and we'll be listening to the new Mastodon the whole time because last time we atheists got together to play Find The Gerbil we burned out on those Britney Spears albums that we stole from Walmart. You can't have everything, I guess.

Song: "Where It's At"
Artist: Beck
Album: Odelay (1996)

I have no turntables and a microphone that looks like a black dick.

I also have a hammer.

And nighttime heartburn.

I wish I had a megaphone. Then Bobo would know how I really feel.

This was the best video ever at the time.

Song: "Semi-Charmed Life"
Artist: Third Eye Blind
Album: Third Eye Blind (1997)

This was my favorite song for a month or two when I was 15. The song in music mirrored my mood at the time, hyper positive. Things were going well enough in school, I had a best friend who brought me positivity and growth as a person, I felt interested in "life", I had some idea of who I was, and I trusted the future would bring me better things. There were dramas, but I felt good.

I never tried to discover what the lyrics were. When I finally looked them up this decade, I was pretty surprised. All that ignorance. I bet it did psychological damage. ... If there's an answer to that mystery, I'm sure it's present on this blog by now.

Song: "What's This Life For?"
Artist: Creed
Album: My Own Prison (1997)

I don't necessarily hate this song, but have the disgust for this band. Overplayed at the time it came out, that rode itself out and was replaced by some other, newer song. What was more annoying at the time and for a while afterward was the number of morons who considered Creed the end-all be-all of music. It was pretty scary. For a while, though, they became an easy weighing tool for me to quickly learn how much I had in common with others. Yeah, I'm judgmental, I know. But you have to be when there are Creeds and Blink182s out there raping the sense out of the children.

Song: "Wrong Way"
Artist: Sublime
Album: Sublime (1996)

Here's another song I'm in hate with.

I'll give Sublime for being catchy and having relevancy, and they're okay and they have their place... But... The obsessiveness. Why. The radio when I was growing up was constantly playing Sublime - ESPECIALLY this song. There's only so much of Annie's bullshit you can take. This was later made worse by retarded friends and coworkers who had a collective Sublime hard-on. No. Just say no, kids. Sublime is not the answer.

Song: "19 Witches"
Artist: Monster Magnet
Album: Powertrip (1998)

And finally in this round of stupid crap I listened to in 2000 because I couldn't afford CDs and mp3 sharing wasn't popular enough yet, this highly contrasting song to what else I listened to in 2000. Or any year for that matter.

I don't know about the lyrics, but this song sounds super positive and energetic.

Song: "Boogie Woogie Wu"
Artist: Insane Clown Posse
Album: The Great Milenko (1997)

The first ICP song I ever heard... Not too bad all in all, but it definitely requires active listening.

This song/album reminds me horribly of the month after I graduated high school (aka July 2000) and the people I was hanging out with at that time.

That and "Under The Moon" is a fucking genius masterpiece of a song.

Song: "Cemetary Girl"
Artist: Insane Clown Posse
Album: Riddlebox (1995)

And another on my hard drive in July 2000.

A song about fucking dead people. Why not?

Speaking ICP's obsession with fucking dead things, "Dead Body Man" was also on my hard drive, then. This song is still stuck in my head. 55, 65 bodies at least...

I totally understand if you unsubscribe, stop following, and delete your bookmarks after this.

Song: "Sway"
Artist: Coal Chamber
Album: Coal Chamber (1997)

There's no excuse. But it was on my hard drive in 2000.

The best part of having/knowing this song came when I was about 17. I was spending time at my sister's house, and my niece's friends were over. They were all about 10 years old. They were being stupid sluts as we all know 10 year old white trash girls are inclined to be to further their career in drug abuse and abortion management, and my joking at how stupid and slutty they were seemed to encourage one of them.

I don't know what the hell happened to make her do this otherwise unprovoked, but she started singing this song... exactly how the song is sung here. It was very memorable... some little girl going "THE ROOF THE ROOF..."

It's like if there's a freak in the world, I'm going to meet them.

Song: "Lazy Boy Dash"
Artist: Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Album: Bring Your Own Stereo (1999)

This one, too, though it wasn't on my hard drive in 2000. We'll get more into that in a second...

Song: "Do Right"
Artist: Jimmie's Chicken Shack
Album: Bring Your Own Stereo (1999)

I was looking at a list of my mp3s back in July 2000. There were 127. I lost or deleted most of them. Here's one I haven't heard in a while. You might recognize it even if you've no idea who the fuck they are.

Song: "Super Sex"
Artist: Morphine
Album: Yes (1995)

Listen by the album. I can't find the song. Of course, name aside, it's a good one.

Song: "My Own Summer"
Artist: Deftones
Album: Around The Fur (1997)

When the two. hits the six. and it's suhh-mmer.

Song: "Young Man Blues"
Artist: The Who
Album: Live at Leeds (1970) / Odds & Sods remastered (1998)

Watch the video.

Song: "Sexy Boy"
Artist: Air
Album: Moon Safari (1998)

...is a rare occurrence, but I suppose when it does, it levels somewhere around this song. At least before "other women" are sighted. Or the boy starts talking. If boys would never talk, that'd be great. Even better if they stayed in the kitchen/laundry room until beckoned. That would solve a lot of problems.

Satire.

Song: "One Inch Man"
Artist: Kyuss
Album: ...And The Circus Leaves Town (1995)

I have Mars square Mars exact tomorrow.

Here's when Mars was in Cancer square my Mars (direct): Tomahawk - Flashback & Kyuss - Green Machine.
(retrograde): Brant Bjork - Low Desert Punk & Placebo - Nancy Boy.
(direct about midnight October 5th/6th 2007, I talked about Tool.)

And Libra (Mars conjunct my Mars): Black Cobra - Sombra de Bestia & Buffalo - Tormento.

Mars in Aries, coming in late April. Last time I had Mars opposite Mars, I found out that Monster Magnet's record was finished. I detect possible synchronicity coming up.

In the meantime... I like this video.

Song: "The Reflecting God"
Artist: Marilyn Manson
Album: Antichrist Superstar (1996)

Merry Christmas!

For those that don't really get the humor located in this post: Lyrics!

Oh yeah, and this is one of the best songs in the history of ever.

Song: "The Wretched"
Artist: Nine Inch Nails
Album: The Fragile (1999)

I recall listening to this album when I was 17, loving it as a whole, and at first gravitating towards pretty much every song but this one. Most of those songs wore thin after a time, and before long I found myself hanging out with this one a lot instead. I remember I even called myself, in a chatroom, "wretched existence", for a handful of days because I was getting really sick of people confusing my usual name with something to do with Nirvana but had yet to come up with a better name.

I think that's about the very time I came up with one of my 'famous' and longest lasting of names. I was talking to a guy named Jay and he, like always, made absolutely no fucking sense, and he referred to me as a "satanic elf" as a joke. It was nearing Christmas, so I suppose these things were on the mind. I thought it was genius. And thus I became... Satanic Elf. Can't fucking confuse that with Kurt Cobain's idiocy, you uncultured fucks.

For the record, if any of my old jerk friends from chat(ro) or that other place ever read this... HI. EMAIL PLEASE.

Obviously I connect this album to a time period... It works like that.

Anyhow, more recently, I saw this band live. This is the actual "song" song that stood out through the show. Crazy, but true.

Song: "Grendel, Snowman"
Artist: Fu Manchu
Album: The Action Is Go (1997)

I was looking for something more cliche to the fact that I'm fucking sick of snow, but I landed here instead. Okay. That's fine. This was one of my first non-astral favorite Fu Manchu songs. It still works.

Un i denti fied.

Song: "Forget the Minions"
Artist: Karp
Album: Karp (1996)

The internet looks slightly different with a monitor that was built in this decade. Pictures, too. I did not know my photos from pre-2004 had that much grain/pixelization in them. Some, yes, but not that much.

Anyhow, this song has a little of a slow start, but then goes somewhat nutsy. Because I dictate all that is good in the world, this is a good thing and you will consume if you have not already. Hey look, it's Jared from Big Melvins, but ten years ago!

Song: "Black Steel"
Artist: Tricky
Album: Maxinquaye (1995)

Wait, one more special occasion song!

Be a good hippy-anarchist-feminist and don't vote.

This was one of the coolest songs I've ever seen live, even a football field away from the stage.

PS. It's a cover.

Song: "Jimmy The Exploder"
Artist: The White Stripes
Album: The White Stripes (1999)

I heard The White Stripes for the first time in early 2002 and due to having nothing better to do with myself, downloaded a random song-by-song sampling of their present discography back when Audiogalaxy was an entirely free service. I listened to a few songs and got a very familiar feeling from the lyrics and music style, like something that had come from within. I pictured hanging out with my other family as a kid and my not-my-dad singing at us kids in his obnoxious, over-the-top way, clearly having grown up in a place that was not conservative little or-gan. I found it strange when I started to unintentionally mimic this shit later on, and all along thought that maybe it was specific to his family that I'd accidentally inherited all despite being of a completely different temperament... until I heard The White Stripes. The words are different, and of course these are songs and not random outbursts, but the style rung very familiar.

"Jimmy The Exploder" doesn't come across as familiar in the way I mean, but the song was funny/surprising the first time I heard it. For real? Someone really thought this was decent material to put to a record? They got paid for this, you guys. Think about that. A lot.

Song: "Cosmic Overdrive"
Artist: Sheavy
Album: Blue Sky Mind (1995)

Sheavy is awesome. If you have yet to hear them, please... change this.

This song is between the Melvins' "A History of Drunks" and Kyuss' "Tangy Zizzle" in my top-listened songs list, which says plenty enough about its worth.

Song: "King of Mars"
Artist: Monster Magnet
Album: Dopes to Infinity (1995)

Someone explain this song to me. Assuming it comes with explanation and isn't wandering in lyrical mist forever. It seems sarcastic, but coming from a guy with Moon conjunct Pluto, it's hard to tell.

Song: "All Your Way"
Artist: Morphine
Album: Yes (1995)

No words. Just find the song. You know you can do it.

Song: "Soul Burn"
Artist: Meshuggah
Album: Destroy Erase Improve (1995)

This song sounds best in context, with the build-up from the previous song. You sort of have to have a reason or need to listen to it otherwise. People/situations who are irritating but won't go the fuck away are fair reason, I think.

Song: "No One's Kind"
Artist: Staind
Album: Tormented (1996)

Yep, Staind used to be good. Can't believe it myself. This album, as a whole, is a worthwhile time-spent, as long as you can stand the whining because the whole thing is apparently about frustration and suicide. This song isn't as overtly thematic on the suicide part as the others, but is nevertheless 'there'.

Song: "Stinkfist"
Artist: Tool
Album: Aenima (1996)

When people don't know me in a balanced setting, I can often get away with appearing really stupid in the sense of naive. For the most part, this is an asset. If nothing else, it makes me less afraid to ask apparently stupid questions and/or act like an idiot. It also seems to make people comfortable with me when they probably shouldn't be.

I was on a quiet mission to find someone(s) attractive yet intelligent enough to talk to yet also musically aware. I had just started listening to Tool on purpose, so I figured that they'd be a decent way to gauge my humans.

The first plane deboarder was a Tool geek, and songs were pressed on me. I knew some. He sent me my first mp3, incorrectly filenamed "stinkfist.wav", dated November 4, 1998. I knew the song well, but I'd never paid attention to the literal lyrics. I gave it a better listen. Uh-oh, I think someone has a crush on me. *ignores*

I met another guy around Halloween, and a couple of days later we were talking on the phone - it could have very well been November 4th. I didn't realize it yet, but he was bad at conversation, so we resorted to talking about the band. He said he liked this one song and summed it up. I said it was "Stinkfist". He was happy I knew, and went on to keep describing it as if "just in case". Yeah, uh, I know the song. The conversation moved elsewhere, sort of, but then I heard it playing somewhere on the other end. Oh jesus, here we go. He started singing.

Imagine a giant eyeball rolling. You know the movie Freaked? Picture one of the Eyes doing a slow back flip. That is what I did.

Then I got off the phone in quick succession and busted out laughing. Holy Shit. What a Bunch of Fucking RETARDS.

Guys, don't do this.

Song: "Cumbersome"
Artist: Seven Mary Three
Album: American Standard (1995)

And here's my favorite (radio) song for a number of years. I don't remember when I picked it up anymore, just that I had it memorized in my half-conscious mind by the time I was 16. I do remember, though, being surprised around 2002 when a not-very-intelligent girl-lady I knew quoted this song in my presence. I asked how she knew the song, and she said a guy had sung it to her. LOL! Yeah, I can see that.

And since I suppose I'm on a roll today, how about a six six sixty sixth song?

Song: "Hope You Die"
Artist: The Atomic Bitchwax
Album: The Atomic Bitchwax (1999)

Alright, let's bring it back down to earth before I disappear for hours/days again. Here's a completely irrelevant song that is nevertheless fun to entertain as applying to others. And there's good music within, too!

Song: "Casual Affair"
Artist: Tonic
Album: Lemon Parade (1996)

I was going through old tapes last night, and found nothing really of note (besides whatever germs I picked up from the dust that has given me a sore throat and what seems to be a fever) but was reminded of this song. A boy-man sent it to me in cassette format on the back end of songs I had requested from him, and I didn't "get it". Why, man, why?

Song: "Dried Up Tied Up And Dead To The World"
Artist: Marilyn Manson
Album: Antichrist Superstar (1996)

This song just struck me. I've had this forever, some of you have probably also had this album in your collection for quite a few years as well. I find it awkward that I started listening to Marilyn Manson around the time of Mechanical Animals and loved Holy Wood when it came out, yet I always come back to Antichrist like it was "first" for me even though it wasn't really where I started. It seems strange that I would meet up with a generation of idiots with this particular album appreciation.

Mm... "The Reflecting God".

Song: "Shame"
Artist: Stabbing Westward
Album: Wither Blister Burn + Peel (1996)

I loved Stabbing Westward to death when I heard them as a teenager - their music worked pretty damn well with my state of mind for a while there. I just put in Darkest Days and was instantly transported to circa 15 years old, in my bedroom with the funny wet metal smell next to the window, with my huge black plastic tape player sitting next to me on the floor broadcasting mostly shitty and repetitive radio music I'd recorded recently because I couldn't afford CDs and hadn't discovered mp3s yet.

I kind of stopped listening to them when I was about 19-20, and only seem to return about once a year to listen to an album or two before moving on again. I don't think I noticed how fucking whiny they were way back when... All the same, I have fond memory. Stabbing Westward are [still] revered over here.

This otherwise creepy song is hilarious if you sing it to your cat or change the lyrics from "exist" to "have sex". And then sing it to your cat. Or you dress up like The Crow (don't forget the socially relevant emo tear!), change the lyrics from "exist" to "have sex", and then sing it to your cat. And then put a video of this on the youtube. ... I'm going to get interesting google hits for this entry.

Song: "Fat Trout"
Artist: Porn (Men of)
Album: American Style (1999)

Favorite song-song of the last week. I thought I might have to go linkless, but their website has an mp3 of it. Hooray for you.

Also, full moon in Pisces AKA the fish? Ha.

Song: "Black Dove"
Artist: Tori Amos
Album: From The Choirgirl Hotel (1998)

The former song always reminds me of this one, and vice versa. Obvious reason why if you know the song. I'm not being very imaginative today.

Song: "Ana's Song"
Artist: Silverchair
Album: Neon Ballroom (1999)

Sun conjunct Saturn? Well, okay.

Song: "Again"
Artist: Alice In Chains
Album: Alice In Chains (1995)

This is just lazy, but that's me. Lazy.

I loved this song to death during a, for lack of a better word, intense period in my life. Listening to this song now, it's sparkling clear how and why I took the direction I have with music despite what's expected of someone who looks and acts like me. It may be a radio song/band, and I discovered a lot of bands in reverse order of relevance, but despite the sad facts, it makes sense why I'm interested in bands like Electric Wizard and the Melvins now. I used to think this song was ridiculously, wondrously heavy - HEH! Okay okay, maybe it still is. Perspective.

I only got rid of my "again and again and again" desktop background a year ago.

Song: "It's Shit"
Artist: Masters of Reality
Album: Welcome to the Western Lodge (1999)

No words for this, aside from the mere fact that it's good. You'll like it.

Song: "Atomic Clock"
Artist: Monster Magnet
Album: Powertrip (1998)

Technically this is a re-post. ... Ten years that I've been listening to this band. Apparently they've rubbed off on my psyche.

PUNS!

Lyrics:
The moon crashed into the desert
It gave me my brand new home
These souls gone to feed in my crater
I eat 'em as fast as they come

I dig your love and affection
I dig your voice on the phone
So pour some coins in my crater
I spend 'em as fast as they come

A greased up atomic pavillion
A great way to swallow my time
But I do think I need a stronger witness
To watch me blow my mind

You ain't digging on my questions
And I know I ain't digging on your lies
Keep on selling me my future
And I'll keep on wearing my disguise

Bullshit may last forever
But my fuse gets shorter every day
I'd be glad to take your money
But gladder to burn it all away

So won't you put my dick in plastic
And put my brain in a jar
If there's something left of my spirit
It'll find you where you are

Still so goddamn hungry
I'm feeding off my own bones
So lay me out in my crater
And nuke me 'til I glow

Song: "Neptune's Convoy"
Artist: Fu Manchu
Album: In Search Of... (1996)

Technically I've posted this song before, but I doubt anybody noticed. The entry had to be deleted, regardless.

This song makes my phantom top-whatever list of Greatest Songs... Ever. In short, that is why you should listen to it.

Presently, I wish I felt nothing. Although if I did, I'd never post, and where would you guys be for your semi-daily dose of stoner rock meets obnoxious electronic? You'd be nowhere.

Song: "Solarisphere"
Artist: Orange Goblin
Album: Time Travelling Blues (1998)

I haven't heard this in a while. I forgot how good it was. The lyrics seem fairly epic and sort of move the song around. Music's good, too. The only really bad thing about this song is that it's too close in track order to "Blue Snow", which is infinitely more likely to get a listen from me.

Song: "Jet Ski"
Artist: Bikini Kill
Album: Reject All American (1996)

Kathleen is not your fucking VCR.

BK is a hard band to listen to most of the time, but when it's a good time, it certainly is. This is pretty much the only group of people that can get away with odd spellings of the word "girl" and not look like total fucking morons. Women in the previous centuries would be pissed to find out that young ladies today are granted the privilege of an advanced education yet revert to onomatopoeic misspellings of words learned in kindergarten, as if the animalistic concept of growling somehow grants women strength. No. Just no. If you have to flaunt it, you don't have it to begin with.

It's strange that I would dislike post-90s feminism, being a nearly picture-perfect example of feminism at work... but yep. Any hope for feminism died at "girl power", aka. "I'm going to dress like a raving slut today, THEN completely lead you on, and if you so much as look sideways at me, you're a sexist fucking pig trampling all over my poor, innocent, weak, unloved soul. I have rights, you know."

God, no wonder guys get together at shows and go completely apeshit...

Where was I? Oh right, this song is great.

Song: "The Masses Are Asses"
Artist: L7
Album: The Beauty Process (1997)

This seems to be a song about song-writing, and it's a great song as-is, but I think the title alone applies to my experience of recent.

I had sufficient warning, but my arrogance and curiousity took over. What I thought might be an "interesting" few hours spent collectively worshiping good music turned out to be incredibly boring, futile experience. Why do some bands sound great on record but seem like pretentious assholes live? It's been a while since I've gone from thinking "this is great!" about a band to "what the fucking shit is this?!" in a matter of minutes, and the last time was The Gossip, so I'm feeling a bit stunned. I sense that others feel the same way as I do and did, and yet I still find comments about them being the greatest live band ever. Boy, some people are fucking dumb. Two thumbs down and zero stars for you, Boris.

However, without Boris, I never would have seen Torche live. So maybe the masses aren't so much of asses as it seems on the surface. But still. Ugh.

Song: "From Mars"
Artist: Dozer
Album: Dozer/Unida Split (1999)

And I know.. you're like a stone.. soaring down... soaring down.

Both Dozer and Unida's songs on this split CD are great. Unida of course, but I'm not always interested in Dozer's material. Their songs here go down the path of stoner rock to a T - familiar, warm and rich in sound, and welcoming in nature. Those who have not been introduced to "stoner rock", especially coming from a modern radio or classic rock background, will find this album very, very rewarding.

As for the song, I think much of what I said about the album itself applies. Give it a listen over at last.fm.

Song: "Month of Sundays"
Artist: Sheavy
Album: Blue Sky Mind (1996)

Short of purposeful distortion, this is the coolest most incoherent song on the planet. I dare you to actually sit down and try to write out the lyrics to this song. All of them.

In memory, I was listening to this song the most in mid-2005, when I first joined last.fm and when I first had a new kitten in my house. I used to make the poor, innocent kitten head bang upside-down to the song. He liked it. He would, because being my cat, he better have taste. I don't.

Anyway, ADD aside, this is a pretty cool song. The world honestly needs more Sheavy (and Red Fang, too, for that matter!). Check it out... and let the blue sky fill up your mind.

Song: "Pushit"
Artist: Tool
Album: Aenima (1996)

This song also reminds me of late-at-night existence.

I had had this album a while. One day, skipping school sometime in the middle of my junior year, I stayed home to do some pseudo-artistic projects. I got carried away and couldn't press stop after the songs I liked best had played unless I wanted to ruin my music player. So I let the album play all of the way through, for the first time actually sitting through "Pushit". I was in exactly the mood and mindset for it.

It's strange looking back these days at my inability to get through a nearly ten minute song, having to do it basically by force, when one of my favorite songs of late is 23 minutes long and I consistently get through ten minute long tracks without issue.

Even still, tracks like this take a bit of work on the listener's part due to the subject matter and delivery. This is not exactly an "every day" song, unless maybe you're a masochist. In the right mood and mindset, however, "Pushit" is fucking amazing.

I give you no link out of principle. Buy the album.

Song: "Blood, Milk, And Sky"
Artist: White Zombie
Album: Astro-Creep: 2000 (1995)

Do you really need a link to this, really?

This song reminds me very much of my teenage years. I think the first time I heard it I was in a friend's car, probably driving around late at night. And this is very much a "late at night" song.

Song: "Guardrail"
Artist: Fu Manchu
Album: The Action Is Go (1997)

Me and this song here have history. I don't know if it's a momentarily amazingly good song that I've ruined and merely remember as really good, or if it really is as good as I once thought. I would like to think it is... after all, "izth' di'yin sown!"

Song: "Naked In Front Of The Computer"
Artist: Faith No More
Album: Album of the Year (1997)

What a nice happy little song of aggression.

You probably know or have this already, so you won't mind the less-than-desirable sound in that video. Right? Right.

Song: "Beneath"
Artist: Meshuggah
Album: Destroy Erase Improve (1995)

I think I may finally be feeling somewhat better. I did not really mention the sickness I had because I think the lack of internet and headphones speaks enough on its own this month, but it's been around making me not want to post even moreso than these other things. Plus I can't take care of these other things yet. I'm having a moment in life where the use of words like "motherfucker" and "cunt" is highly appropriate.

Thus, this song. First off, the beginning of the song is very much great. So is the end. The whiny guitar and not-singing parts are great, too. I get a little bored with the song overall, but those little pieces make the song quite awesome. Especially that first two minutes. I'm sure you guys are aware of my aesthetic ADD by now and won't let my momentary boredom keep you from enjoying this little piece of compressed joy for yourself.

The album's good, too.

Song: "The Dragonfly"
Artist: Clutch
Album: The Elephant Riders (1998)

There's something about the wide appeal of Clutch that I don't understand. Maybe they simply acquire the kind of listeners that quietly persevere. Something about their sound makes me feel like I should be default drunk before listening to them, which is possibly the very reason why I don't care for this band as a whole. Still, they have some fine music here and there.

This song's lyrics are like listening to a very stoned person trying to explain a situation they have feelings about. What the hell is going on here, seriously? It's a great song, great imagery, and it's plenty "interesting", so be sure to give it a try.

Song: "Masikit"
Artist: Meatjack
Album: Trust (1999)

I'm not sure when or where I found this, and can't find a specific sample of the song... but they do have various other songs online.

I'm as-yet undecided about this band, but I have to say this song has been playing quite a lot in recent days. The end is worth the trouble finding the song.

Song: "Twenty"
Artist: Karma to Burn
Album: Wild Wonderful Purgatory (1999)

I have a tough time remembering which of this band's songs are most good as the majority of their song titles are numbers, and as many of their songs are instrumental. Don't let this fact sway you from finding more of their material than what I'm giving you here, however - this band is way up there on the list of stoner and heavy rock bands one should hear in their lifetime.

They also have a fan myspace with one of their best songs up - "One" (also known as "Twin Sisters and a Bottle of Bourbon" when it has lyrics).

Song: "Future Breed Machine"
Artist: Meshuggah
Album: Destroy Erase Improve (1995)

I wanted to like this song so bad just from the title. Maybe it's from that keenness for cynicism that I've gotten to this point and decided that this is a good song, but... maybe not.

Regardless, I'm stumped as to how this "crazy" shit jumped out of 1995. I was between 7th and 8th grade when this album came out. I remember nothing of my musical perspective at that time being even kind of this heavy. TV was parading various rap and hip-hop bands, and it was mostly pop and generic rock on the radio. I know I was familiar with metallica at that time in a vague way, and I saw random videos of aging hair-metal bands on MTV now and again, but... from memory alone, they simply don't match this kind of intense yet full sound. This cultural unawareness bothers me.

And it comes complete with amazing lyrics. No, it's not whining about being a drunken loser, having lost love and heartbreak, or getting fucked/fucked up. It's a metal song, remember?

For the record, I changed the formatting of the lyrics I found to be readable without the music.

an even strobe
a pulse of flashing hate-lights of synthetic souls mass-produced
hammered to shape a sign of times
dreams turn into systems
a new way
a new breed implanted in our minds

here i am in the hand of a sterile hate, the new control
i can not wake
i'm not asleep

new intelligence arise in emptied bodies
turgid flesh tested through (eternal spastic fits?)
through not-known codes mother machine genocide now scorn a dying race

evolution in reverse
now it's time for me
changing what am i to be
contorted
an eternity defeated

programmed to appease you
we're symbols of perfection
humanoids run by your laws: destroy erase improve
lesson first: submission
we're docile servant dogs
our leashes are your limbs computed deep within

remoted minds controlled our thoughts
no more doubts
the new way is here
disgorged
another thousands fakes that obey to a circuit skein to vacuum

mechanical thoughts i now concieve
no longer me
always to see inanity
millions to be units like me
eternally human patterns copied, dissected, distorted,
completed to fit the machine
the nerve fibers give in to cords to the unknown

see me, be me, same contents, same machine

the currency of ours
no more flesh and bone
we are to be unaware of what we have been before

evolution in reverse
now it's time for me
changing what am i to be contorted
an eternity
defeated by the new machine

Sounds like someone hated their job.

I, personally, would rather not be a leg of a giant mechanical squid.

Song: "Let's Run"
Artist: Le Tigre
Album: Le Tigre (1999)

Here's an extremely annoying song about being a needy slag. When I first heard it, I was annoyed, but like with "Take Me To The Hospital" by The Faint, it's one of those songs whose lyrics get stuck in your head entirely without your permission. We could try, like super hard, to prevent this from happening... but like the song says, it needs attention every day and every niiiiight.

Song: "Electric Head, Part 1 (The Agony)"
Artist: White Zombie
Album: Astro-Creep: 2000 (1995)

What?! I haven't posted any White Zombie yet?!

Song: "Supertramp"
Artist: The Jesus and Mary Chain
Album: Munki (1998)

Run, Forrest, run!

Song: "Third Alternative"
Artist: Monster Magnet
Album: Dopes to Infinity (1995)

"Well I sense a slight recoil... Was it something that I said?"

It's about time to post this song.

"Third Alternative" is amazing.

Any time I post about one of these tracks where I love the band and I think the songs they put out are all, if nothing more, good, I feel a little awkward in discussing them. There isn't really a way to explain music. Genres are limited. It seems strange to describe the overall feeling when the same music strikes people in different ways for different reasons even if they agree the music is above-par.

What I can say is this is one of my favorite songs, ever. The lyrics are great (though a matter of darker taste), the way this song carries emotion is great, and it's fucking Monster Magnet. If you don't like this, I.. don't know what to tell you... What's wrong with you?

Song: "Where Is Everybody?"
Artist: Nine Inch Nails
Album: The Fragile (1999)

Trent Reznor made a comment in an interview once about how he wasn't satisfied with this album... and I find that ridiculous. It's one of my all-time favorites.

As for this particular song... it's tough to chose a single song out of this album. It makes more sense in context, at least to me. In any case, it's very lyrically focused. I'd listened to this album a hundred times before I realized that I could nearly verbatim quote it from beginning to end, which seems odd considering my poor literal memory. So, it must be catchy...

Song: "Prosethics"
Artist: Slipknot
Album: Slipknot (1999)

Another creepy song for you.

I was in a shitty state of mind around the time that this album came out, and thus it became a favorite. This song was especially striking to me at the time, and therefore I have pretty fond memories of it.

And that reminds me of another album from mid 1999...

Song: "The Mouth Licking What You've Bled"
Artist: Meshuggah
Album: Chaosphere (1998)

This song sounds nothing like the decade it came out of, at least according to what I lived. The lyrics are familiar to most heavier and darker metal, however, assuming you care to look them up. Reading this song, I was reminded of Mudvayne and Slipknot... which is a jump from what Meshuggah actually does, musically.

That said, if you're not familiar with the style or otherwise open to this, this is going to just sound like noise to you.

"I'm common". For being such a metal masturbation fest, it sounds more like "I'm coming" to me.

Song: "Come To Daddy"
Artist: Aphex Twin
Album: Come To Daddy EP (1997)

I WILL EAT YOUR SOUL!

... See song for explanation if you don't understand this outburst. I can't believe it's taken me six months of posts to get around to this song.

Song: "Bender"
Artist: Sevendust
Album: Home (1999)

This is one of the songs (and artist, not including the inclusion of Chino from Deftones) that helped me transition out of standard commercial rock and to discover that I preferred a heavy overall sound.

In most moods, this song does not really appeal. But if you've got angst, it works. If you don't have much angst but you do have a working sense of humor, I challenge you to figure out the lyrics to this song without looking them up.

"sweet and tangy alive, only do i spit..."

Song: "July"
Artist: Slo Burn
Album: Amusing the Amazing (1996)

Slo Burn is [was :(] "amazing" by default due to their singer being John Garcia of Kyuss. The music is in the same vein as Kyuss, although with a stronger overall bass and apparently more centered intention.

If you're new to Slo Burn, you're missing out. Here's a good place to start.

Song: "Blue Snow"
Artist: Orange Goblin
Album: Time-Travelling Blues (1998)

This song's lyrics remind me of a time that someone was talking about having sex after eating ham. It hadn't happened - it was the plan.

You're welcome.

Song: "Too Many Chiefs... Not Enough Indians"
Artist: Brant Bjork
Album: Jalamanta (1999)

And now an obvious post for the date.

Excellent video, in two parts, almost working as a substitution for the on-album song.

Song: "Freak"
Artist: Silverchair
Album: Freak Show (1997)

You've probably heard this. In case you were in a coma or in jail in 1997, this band is pseudo-famous due to the fact that the singer begun this band as a toddler, and therefore all of their songs revolve around infantile expression sometimes referred to as "teen angst". This song displays that very well. Unlike similar bands of the time and disposable copy-cats of the future, it's a more time-tested kind of song.